as i woke up this morning, i was trying to think *did this reeli happen? did this reeli happen?!?!?!?!?!*
last nite @ 2:15 am, the phone rings, while sleeping i was getting so pissed off, cus hello? who call at that time?? i pick up, it was my brother. First thing i could think of was.. *Where r u??* i never could think straight after he said the Crestview County Jail. Being in shock im like *WTF did u do?* in my mind. My dad goes on the phone and im just listening my brother tlaking to him. They towed his car, he's held on bond, he's got 2 court dates (one today), but when my dad asked him. what he did. He didn't wanna say, he just kept on saying.. *U'll find out in court.* But after a lil bit he said for possession. He's been charged with this for like the what 6th or 7th time? Been kicked outta school for time, gone to many detnention centers, health hospitals, and i remember my dad always saying, wait til ur an adult and they catch you? He's an adult now, they caught him, what is gonna happen to him? I just know he won't be at home for a reeli long time. I may always complained about my brother and saying i don't like him..but he was always nice, and loving, i bet he was sooo scared, being behind bars, next to sumone that prolly committed murder or sumthing and him.. just turning 18, doing school. It because of him, my parents are soo strict on me for school my friends, my life. Will things get harder for me, cus of his mishap?.. ahhhhh
I dunno if anyone could relate to this or have a word of wisdom..but sum of my good firends ive talked about and been through this will get me, just when a time i needed sumnoe reeli close with me, or even my own best friend, they weren't there, or there gone.
everything is in a whirl, i couldn't sleep, i just kept wondering, thinking, after he said *its scary here* is he ok? my worst nightmare, his worst nightmare, is true now.